During my morning routines - that start with waking up before the alarm, I found myself laying in my bed at 6:00am, wishing that I could have another hour or more in bed. I caught myself working on my quarter 3 taxes until 10:00 last night, which left me with little time to prepare for the next morning (as I have successfully done the past few nights).
I rushed through my planning process and found a 20 minute yoga, 20 minute meditation and a song of the day to use. (my kids are looking forward to the song of the day as much as I do).
For anyone who is enjoying my shares about my 20 minute yoga, meditation and song of the day:
- Yoga: Yoga for Detox with Adriene
- Meditation: Mindfulness Meditation in 20 minutes (guided technique/anxiety/depression/stress relief)
- Song of the day: Roar, by Katy Perry
Half way through my yoga this morning, (around 6:30 this morning), I got a text message. It was my mom. I thought I should read it as I hadn't talked with her in a few days. However, I waited until my yoga was over. After I replied to her, I continued with my 20 minutes of meditation (after I told her that is what I would be doing, so that she would know I may not reply immediately). Through my meditation I got another message or two. I continued to ignore them and enjoy the process of relaxation.
When meditation was over, I started to journal. I only had one full page done (between personal journalling and soul journalling), and didn't have much to say...even my soul journalling was simple and quick with no major "juice" like in previous days. I looked at it as a non-judgment moment and went about my time to get upstairs to continue my routines (Ionix, and usually shake - but planned to have my first of 4 cleanse drinks of the day).
As I got upstairs, my mom texted again to ask me to call her. This is not part of my routine and I did want to call her back, but knew it might impact my structure to my morning. But decided to embrace it and allow myself to let go of "structure". Yet, day 3 into a new routine, this might not have been the best idea, because as I listened and talked with her, I was finding myself mixing my shake and drinking it (while taking my vitamins) after I took my ounce of Ionix, only to realize as I was half way through, I planned to cleanse today. I caught myself rolling my eyes at myself, and then instantly forgave myself for the mistake and the moment of self-judgement. IT HAPPENS, there will always be other days I can do a cellular cleanse...even if it means I do my first double day cleanse next week. My soul asked me to be gentle with myself today in the journalling, so I was happy to oblige. The more we beat ourselves up for something we forgot about or had planned, the longer it takes us to shift into our new healthy, happy mind/body/soul connection.
I realized that the kids were going to miss the bus. And I had a moment of relaxed bliss. The kids missing the bus isn't my idea of "fun", but I recognized that it isn't the end of the world. I felt relaxed bliss, because I had already had my shake and ionix - so this wasn't a day I would "skip" my best meal of the day and opt for a drive thru, that I so often would do (even just a week ago when I had to take them to school). I was reminded again, that when I place priority on "putting my oxygen mask on first" in the morning with my "self-care time", I am better able to cope with the demands of "things that come up".
I took them to school, drove to Wasaga Beach and promised my kids that when I came back at 11:30 to volunteer with Jack's class, that I would have new gloves/mitts for each of them to wear. And again, I followed through.
Today is the busiest day of the week. I know that I will not be able to get everything done that I had set out to accomplish, but this is where letting go of some of the expectations that I have on myself will be my way to be gentle with me and love where I am anyway.
By the time the kids are home from school, I know I will feed them an early dinner so that the girls can get to their gymnastics class on time. Jack and I will do his homework and read when we are watching the girls (do what they love to do) and we will get home for a later bedtime (because gym goes later than normal bedtime).
And we will continue doing our best again tomorrow.
One thing I am grateful to not only learn today, but to also practice, is being gentle with myself. I love that my soul journalling brought that up. My soul's simple message from today is below...and yes, my soul writes very fast, so my printing is messy. Unlike 3.5 pages yesterday and the day before, my soul simplified the message today...now I realize why. Today is about simplifying and being gentle with the process.
Curious about soul journalling, find a link on my first day.